My One Little Word for this year is NURTURE. I think I’m doing OK with it.
At the beginning of the year I decided I needed to slow down, cut back, get to know my new life without a cubicle job and so much more. I wanted to spend more time saying No than saying Yes. I wanted to see what I could do with the products I already have than just launching a new one.
I’ve been backing away and keeping to myself and doing more or less the bare minimum I needed to do to keep up with everything.
I had more ideas of what I wanted to do this year, but I needed a break. I needed to stop looking forward and start saying No.
At about 6 or 7 months of not looking for the next big thing I feel…
- Behind. Like everyone else is moving forward and I am being left behind.
- Relaxed. Mostly.
- Poor. Made far less money this year than last.
- Productive. But only in writing fiction. L&R feels stagnant (to me).
Finding a common thread? It turns out when I don’t give in to my ambition and extreme work-ethic I feel bad about myself. <sarcasm> That’s healthy. </sarcasm>
To be honest, it IS good that I had planned on pulling back this year. Because Andrew has been working so very much, I need to be available for the house and to do things for him that he just doesn’t have time to do (when he’s only home 20 minutes out of a 6 day period). Also, I did finish some things, like my Scotland Blurb book and a few novel drafts. But overall when I look back at 2014 so far I feel unproductive.
So, that settles it. Not pursuing goals is bad for my self-esteem.
I’m going to be spending the next couple weeks going over my goals and my direction and what I want to accomplish before the end of the year. I’m really excited about setting up a new little niche site on Friday! It’s going to be a fun project for me that can also benefit you all.
I’m going to say Yes to a new opportunity. I’m going to say Yes to taking a new risk. I’m going to say Yes to growth and planning and working hard.
I want all of it to remain in the NURTURing vein, but I need to be working. I need to DO stuff and not just relax.
I can’t wait!