This year, I am focusing on making the small choices to bring my One Little Word into my life on a weekly-or-so basis.
This year I want to NURTURE my life and the things I already have, rather than fall into that rat-race-style trap of more, bigger, further, etc. I want to cultivate my existing business rather than stretching myself too thin. I want to take care of ME and all the little pieces that make up me.
I invested A LOT of money in my yet-to-be-launched fiction writing career. I have been writing all year (3 first drafts finished so far in 2014) and this opportunity came up that I had be be brave and take.
Here’s why this is remarkable: I am terrible at spending money. On myself.
I am overly cautious and constantly in planning mode and can always find a logical reason why I don’t need something. I don’t actually have that big of a problem getting treats for Andrew, or spending money on good food when we host guests or picking up the tab when we are traveling with friends.
It’s just that I much prefer to save money than to spend it, so when I am the beneficiary of said spending I talk myself out of it. Every time. I literally need to let Andrew make the decision for me.
But now, for the first time in years and years, I have decided to spend money on my future. I let Andrew talk me into spending the money that will help NURTURE my potential new career.
So … this weekend I will be in Austin, Texas, at a writing summit that I believe (if I put in the necessary work) could jump start my fiction-writing career. I spent weeks and weeks (and weeks) talking it over with Andrew. I put off actually registering as long as possible. Even now when it’s too late to do anything about it I wonder if I made the right decision.
But this is something for me, that 100% fits into both last year’s word BRAVE and this year’s word NURTURE.
Spending this much money doesn’t bother Andrew in the slightest and I am so lucky to have him on my team. There are so many things I would not do for myself if it weren’t for him.
I will report more on the weekend when I return. I really am excited, even though I am *super* nervous.
P.S. We also just bought tickets to see Wicked in December, even though we can’t really afford it. Because we both believe that experiences are worth spending money on. I can’t wait!